Monthly Archives: February 2014

You Don’t Know

How can you let me hurt so?
How can you stand there and laugh
Smile and chat to your heart’s content
When I can feel my world shuttering inside?
How can you be so happy
When I can’t even master the strength for a fake smile?

I’m afraid to look into your eyes
To raise up my head and see you smile.
I’m afraid to ever ask
If I still exist in your world
Afraid of the answer I might get
Afraid of what I might see.

Every day I tell myself I’m gonna be just fine –
Everyday I wake up and get dressed
Push myself just to get through another day.
Every day I lie to myself
Believing it’s the only way I’m ever going to survive
And every day, I die a little more inside.

How can I be so disoriented
When you look like your world is a shining rainbow?
How can I be so afraid
When you seem like nothing can stop you?
How is it I struggle with myself in your presence
Yet you barely ever seem to blink
Like the past is nothing but that?

But you don’t know the truth
You don’t know the battle I fight
You don’t know the tears I’ve shed
You don’t know the pain I feel
You don’t know the lies I tell myself

So you stand there and be happy
You smile and laugh
Because you don’t know

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Posted by on February 22, 2014 in Poetry, Tori's Poetry


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Comfortable Within

We lie, we lie, and we lie
We look into each others’ eyes
And we lie
We smile into each others’ face
And we lie
We hug and shake hands
And still we lie

Every day we meet
We lie
Every time we talk
We lie
Day after day
We lie, and still we lie

We go home and we think
Tomorrow is another lie
We’ll meet, talk, touch, laugh
And then lie some more

Everyday is a lie
Because you and I
Have always been a lie.

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Posted by on February 20, 2014 in Poetry, Tori's Poetry


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I love you

How powerful can three simple words make a life so damn complicated. How is it that a simple “I love you” can make ones life so restless.
I knew I loved you from the day I first saw you. I knew I was in trouble when I laid my eyes on you and let that stupid smile of yours capture my attention.
I did all I could to fight it, told myself a hundred times that it was nothing and I will get over it soon. I thought it’s just an attraction, it goes away eventually and i’ll move on. But then I had a crush n I thought well its just a crush right it cant be anything serious. So I let it be.
So where the hell did I go wrong, where did I let myself get so stupid and so close. When did it become ok to say “i love you” and then just let myself think it’s safe…when?
When your lips touched mine, I felt like I was drowning in an ocean and there was no chance there was going to be a rescue team…so I drowned and I still feel like im drowning because you pulled out….and then I really had no one to pull me back up. I lost myself in you and I dont know how and if im ever getting out.
I love you.
Words that are meant to bring joy to someone
Instead all I got is pain and an ocean to drown in.
But I still love you because I dont know what else to do. Its all I know.
I love you

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Posted by on February 7, 2014 in Drama, Social Life, The Globe


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