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Love / Hate / The finer Line

A normal person would take a lot of time to do everything possible to have the person they love, love them back. They would show their love through kindness and generosity, and care and words – whatever it takes, because they know that that love is precious to them and is what would make them happy -but that is what a normal person would do.

A person who would do anything possible to get someone else to hate them because they are too scared of the truth or facing the possibility that someone is capable of loving them wholly and completely must certainly be evil. How could you possibly trade the greatest thing God ever made for the worst thing that ever sprouted out of man’s once pure heart? Hate over Love?

Most people are searching for love, desperate for it. Some spend a lifetime never truly experiencing this amazing one-of-a-kind feeling, never knowing what it’s like to love and be loved; and yet there are other people who would easily throw it away, do horrible and unfathomable things to people who love them just because they are scared and cruel.

But here’s the thing, love is love. It can never be traded for hate, it can never be replaced or tainted or forgotten. It can hurt, but it will always find the strength to let go and forgive, to heal in due time and grow again. IF what you feel in your heart is truly Love and not a semblance of it, then no matter how horrible a person is, no matter how hurt you get, you will always find a way to forgive, because hating someone is so much harder than to just love them, and because that Love is truer than anything else, stronger than any mistake or pain.

There’s no such thing as “one day she/he will get tired of loving you” – if they get tired of loving you then they never really did in the first place. Love can never get tired. It just understands that sometimes this person was not the right one for me, he/she has already moved on and found something better, and one day I will too. Do not listen to someone who tells you that Love isn’t worth it, that it will eventually end, that they will hurt you in ways you can’t imagine and you will hate them, because that is a lie.

Love IS worth it, it will never end. Yes, it will hurt at some point, but you will always find the strength within that love to heal and forgive. When they hurt you, look into your heart, find that part of you that knows the truth, that realizes that whatever they are doing to hurt you is because they may be scared, or aren’t ready for your love, so they will hurt you in the hope of chasing you away by hate.

Once you get past the anger and pain, you will open your eyes and you will see the truth. You will forgive them and possibly still love them because you know they need that love, that pure and strong love. If they choose to use you as an outlet for all the things they cannot let out elsewhere, let them. Be that outlet for them, be the strength they need and give them the Love only you know how.

IF you truly Love someone and you believe they are worth it, do not ever let them push you away through hate because of their fear. Let them find another way, an honest way, not the cowardice way!

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Posted by on June 3, 2017 in Drama, Faith, Me. You. US, Social Life, The Globe

 

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BLAAAAAAH!

You know when you wake up one day and wonder if this is going to be a good day?

What is the first thought that crosses your mind when you realize dawn has come? Is it, what am i going to eat today? Where will I get money for my children? Will I meet someone interesting today? Will I meet the love of my life? Will I get through the day without falling apart?

We are all each so very different and one person can not possibly ask themselves all those questions, and if they do then they are probably not gonna get through the day without falling apart. We have so many answered thoughts, most of which we carry about unnecessarily and makes us feel like everything we do is against us.

And I am writing this post, not coz I have anything interesting to say, but simply coz I wanna put these thoughts down and not have them in my head.

Whatever I write here is not necessarily what you expected to read or what you wanted to hear. Maybe you were hoping I would post something that would make you feel like the world is still turning, but guess what, whether I do write it or not, the world is still turning. Whether you are aware of it or not, time is not waiting for you, and by the time you wake up and realize it, it’s probably too late.

So, no, I am not writing what you wanted to hear, but here’s a little secret – I’ve been waiting for someone to tell me what I think I need to hear because I’m looking for ways to explain all the crazy things going on in my life, but truth is, you already know what you need to do and maybe you’re just too scared to face the reality. And yes, life can be one scary hole sometimes, but at the end of the day, if we keep living in that bubble of scariness, waiting for someone else to pull you out of it, you might find yourself living in that bubble all your life.

Some things you learn to live through, to push through, no matter how impossible it may seem. Not everything in live is going to be easy; parents will raise you up, tell you to study hard, to get a job, but the worst thing they will never do, it tell you just exactly how hard it’s going to be to push through the days you wish you had never been born; they will not give you the hows or whys of why some people will walk all over you, or how to forgive those who wrong you, because those are some things you will just have to learn for yourself, and believe you me, the day you learn to live through those moments, you will come out of it stronger than you’ve ever been and everyday you will push through, just one step at a time.

No matter how impossible something may seem, no matter how painful it may be, you have the strength within you that you could ever need to get through anything the world has to throw at you. All you gotta do is BELIEVE in yourself. It will never be easy, but maybe one day, it may just be worth it!

 

 
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Posted by on January 26, 2017 in Me. You. US, Social Life, The Globe

 

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Nothingness

How does one live without their heart?

When you have lost it, what is there that keeps you going? How do you breathe? Are you even alive anymore? When all you feel is hollowness, an emptiness so big it’s like an abyss?

Do you keep breathing? When you wake up everyday and know that the inside of your chest is a hollow bottom? The hole so deep there’s no end?  You keep that smile on your face and let everyone think you got it all under control when inside it’s like a raging storm?

How do you live when you know that your heart is lost? Do you still live or are you just going through the motions like an animal? With no purpose or destination?

When the storm rages on and you plaster a smile on your face so they don’t see your weakness, your fear running so deep it’s a pit of blackness; is that the part you are living for?

 
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Posted by on November 7, 2016 in Me. You. US, Social Life, The Globe

 

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Know Thy Worth!

Never try to change your man, if he thinks you’re worth changing for, he will come to that realization all by himself. If he never reaches that realization, then get out because you know your worth is so much more. Do not stay in a relationship that diminishes your value, your standards or the person you believe yourself to be.

Just because he has shown you some attention, showed you off to his friends, and maybe took you to a club does not mean he values you. People keep saying that in the world of today there is no need to court someone or pamper them, and that is just wrong. If a man is not ready to take you out to a romantic dinner every once in a while, treat you like the queen of his heart, put you first when it matters, then really it’s not worth it. Be with a man who will do those things for you; a man who believes that those things MATTER! If he thinks doing those things will make him “gay” then find yourself a REAL man.

If you yourself do not believe you deserve these things then there is no way he will give them to you. Be willing to step up your standards and show that you deserve them and if he isn’t willing to provide them, then stop wasting your time. You should never have to beg for his attention, or his time, and especially not his love. If he’s not willing to give these things to you freely then he is just playing with you until he finds the one he’s willing to do those things for.

Don’t stay in a relationship where you are merely a pawn, because you will get knocked over so much before you even come close to being a queen, and even then that’s a huge possibility that may never come true. And even if in the end it is possible, why would you put yourself through all that? Why don’t you wanna be the queen that stands by her king and makes him stronger? Truth is, if he hasn’t made you his queen in the beginning, if he hasn’t shown that you are worth the effort, then you probably never will be, and waiting for it to happen, for him to change and do that is really a waste of your time and efforts.

Be strong enough to believe that you are worth it. To love and be loved in the same amount is a rare gem, something many people no longer believe in; but the truth is, I believe that if you are willing to open up to the possibility that such a love can and does exist, then someday it will find its way to you. Just be brave enough to Hope!

 
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Posted by on November 6, 2016 in Me. You. US, Social Life, The Globe

 

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Chip Chip, Chop Away

Chip chip,
Chop away
Piece by piece
Watch them fall away
Down down,
Smooth like a feather
To the ground they go
As gravity pulls
Like a meteor they shoot straight down
With no obstacles on the way
Impact is fatal
Destruction is inevitable.
Chip chip,
Chop away
Piece by piece
The hole gets bigger by day
So little remains
Barely noticeable
The light almost gone.
Standing from afar
I watch as you chop away
Without mercy
I watch as you wrought your worst
Taking all you can get.
Chip chip,
Chop away
Like a piece of wood
You chop the pieces off
Until it is worn and useless
The remains to be discarded.
Chip Chip,
Chop away-

 
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Posted by on October 12, 2016 in Me. You. US, Poetry, Social Life, Tori's Poetry

 

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Worth

Most people tend to weigh which is greater from a decision process. Is what you are losing greater than what you stand to gain?

In reality people ought to measure the worth of the loss compared to the gain. Sure you might be gaining more from a decision than what you stand to lose, but ask yourself this: is what you are gaining more important than what you lose? It’s not always about the numbers. You might save ten people and kill one in an accident, but what if the ten people you saved are serial killers and the one you killed was a humble mother at home? Which loss then is greater?

You might think that the more people you lose the harder it is to bare, but in truth you might lose just one person and feel like the world has ended and yet lose three people and still be ok.

Don’t give the small things the same worth as the things that truly matter. Know what is important in your life. Whose love is worth cherishing and which friends are worth fighting for. Just because you have 500 friends on fb or a thousand followers on any social media means that that’s how many will be there for you when you need help.

Never lose sight of what and who truly mattets in your life!

 
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Posted by on May 14, 2016 in Me. You. US, Social Life, The Globe

 

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Puppets

Do you ever feel like you’re a puppet in someone else’s life? That every move you make, every action you do, every word you say or do not say is somehow controlled by someone else? You carefully choose the words to keep to yourself and which one to say out loud, only because you’re afraid of what they might think or of hurting them?

You try so hard to pull away and be your own person, but in the end still find yourself doing things according to how they would feel, act, respond etc. Of course there is that time you get so angry and think “I don’t care if this hurts them or not, I’m gonna do as I please and say what I think”? And maybe for a couple of minutes you contemplate the idea of doing as you please and forget about how they would feel, and for a couple of minutes you feel like yourself again; yet that small precious moment suddenly disappears and you find yourself a puppet once again.

It’s a cruel thing to think that your life is not your own. To think that the one person who makes you happy is also the reason you can be completely and utterly devastated with your life. But the worst part is when you are so down because of them and they don’t give a damn about it, and yet you still totally depend on their change of mind/heart in order to make you better. This is the part where you realize you are a real puppet.

You pull away for a moment, only to realize that your master had merely slightly loosened the ropes, to make you believe that you could actually escape. How cruel is it that you only get a make-believe of your freedom? To be constantly reminded that you cannot escape, that no matter how much you pull and grapple, you’ll never be completely free.

And then you start asking yourself questions of how you ever let this happen. When did you become a puppet? When did you let someone else have so much control over your own life? How did you not see it and stop it?

But then again, all this is pointless now and you are left lifting arms, and making steps that are not your own, saying words that aren’t yours and hiding the things you really want to say.

Pull on puppet-master. Pull on your strings and make me sing and dance to your tune.

 
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Posted by on April 26, 2016 in Me. You. US, Social Life, The Globe

 

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